When I think of 2017, the words change, and transition instantly come to mind. This year held so many milestones and new experiences that changed who I am. Looking back to a year ago, I had just been accepted to college, and I was still in the throws of high school prom drama and online courses that made me want to pull my hair out. I was so done and over with where I was and who I was surrounded by. High school was not an easy road for me. For a large portion of it I was dealing with medical issues that took me out of class a lot. When I finally did get better, it was too late to make my way into a click. I felt on my own and I was behind academically. Thankfully, I had a supportive family and a few amazing teachers who really helped me get through the final stretch of high school and gave me the final push to get the grades I needed to finish in a good place. I had earned my diploma with a lot of late nights a few tears and a lot of effort and work. Graduation day was the best day of my life. Not because I enjoyed the ceremony, or was surrounded by the best of friends, it was the fact that I made it. I was done. All year I felt this hunger to walk across that commencement stage, and gather that diploma in my hands. When I finally did, it was like taking a bite into my adult life. All the tension and nervousness, all the pain and struggle that had crept into my life the past four years left my soul, and I was free. It was by far the most satisfying and rewarding feeling.
All year my Mom and I planned this trip to England. It was a graduation and 18th birthday present. When my Mom and I heard the pilot que in and tell us we were embarking on our final descent to London, I started to cry I was so happy. I almost couldn’t believe where I was. I had graduated high school and now I was almost in England, a place I have dreamt of going to since I could remember. After that trip with my Mom I felt my life fall into place.
I came home missing England of course, but I looked at my school’s study abroad program and now I am determined to go back as soon as possible. I was in and out of the Keys where we fished and participated in lobstering season. I faced a lot of fears this summer, jumping into the ocean, trusting my body, learning to swim like a fish. I loved almost every second, and am grateful for that time I spent there, it truly pushed me out of comfort zone and I did things I never thought I was capable of.
College has been a bit of a roller coaster, but a fun one. Like every other freshman, you feel a little like an alien. You don’t know where you are or how to act all the time and I have already switched my major. Finding your balance in college can be rough but its important. It took me a while to figure out my schedule and to find people I felt close with but eventually college just becomes life, and everyone is just trying to coexist the best that they can. I am still learning. I will be for a long time. There is so much I still need to improve upon. I have my resolutions and things I know I need to change but this year also taught me to be who I am. I also learned that pushing yourself is far better than thinking “what if” after not trying. I hope that at this point next year I look back and I have grown even more . I hope that for all my readers, and I wish you all a very happy New Year.
Goodbye 2017, Hello 2018.